Waiting....Waiting....still waiting....

Why does it seem to be taking FOREVER for Sept to get here... Everyday seems to drag and drag... I think I am actually going crazy from waiting...(well okay, craizer)

I am trying to look at the positives...at least I have time to lose as much weight as possible so no one even knows who I am when we get home...That would be great! I cant wait for that fleeting thought from those who are waiting for us at the airport..."who is that girl with Jack, he must have gotten a new girlfriend" ha ha ha.... (not gonna happen) its just a good thought...

And the second positive is that we have plenty of time to work on that wonderful virture of patience.... hummmm.... its not going so great...

On top of that, I still have been having trouble sleeping...Between that movie of all of the things that I have to do, need to do, want to do, and dont want to do rolling around in my head. I also have RLS to deal with! I hate going to bed, I actually dread walking into the bedroom to lay down... Could have something to do with the fact that our bed is crap! Between the crappy, used, sagging matress the company has in our house and refuse to replace, our bed frame is broken and they wont fix it!!! Hate this cheap-ass company... Wish I could just destroy every piece of furniature in this entire apartment before we left, but there is that darn voice in my head that gets to me every time!!!

I just wish i could go to sleep and wake up in September... Isnt there a song about that???

No Sleepy for you....

I was so freakin tired at around 7:30 this evening, don't actually know why, but was exhausted... so I figure tonight will be a great sleeping night, drift fast off, no tossy-turny, no biting my teeth, no movie or tunes playing in my head... but alas... no such luck...

As soon as I freakin lay down that freakin movie starts going, this time its my grocery list for tomorrow, what I am gonna do when I finally get home, (which is like 3 months away) why the FREK am I thinking about that crap now!

So after the tossy-turny, teeth gnashing, rollie-pollie dance, I have layed there so long I now have to pee, go to the bathroom and am WIDE FREKIN AWAKE! FREK FREK FREK!!!!

So I just downed a excedrin pm for my teeth gnashing induced headache, and hoping it will kick in soon so I can go all drowsie, the only bad thing about that is its now 12 midnight and I have to be up at 7 to catch my only ride off this crap compound and out of the house to make it to the store to once again start that grocery list! FREK!